"BREAKING WALLS"
The walls that I have been building up for years are suddenly breaking,
and reality is slowly taking over my world,
the spell no longer works,
I have failed as a magician.the spell no longer works,
Escapism has been my get away since I was a kid,
I thought I could be able to maintain that worry-less feeling,
I was wrong,
Dreams can shield you from reality but they cannot change it,
the bubble will eventually burst,
and once it does there's not going back.
If I could only find the spell to change reality itself...
but then if I did the wall between fantasy and reality would break creating chaos among humanity and dreamers.
Sometimes (most of the times) I wish I was a changeling,
only posing as a human until my real fairy family takes me back to their world,
a magical world away from this stressful mundanity.
The walls that I have been building for years are suddenly breaking,
my castle has been penetrated,
and the invasion seems inevitable,
It's only a matter of time until I'm found,
and when that occurs,
I won't know what to do.
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This poem is a reflection of my current state of mind, my family is struggling financially, yet they still insist in paying for college, I tell them that it's OK, I can just skip a few years, but they are hard-headed, I can't seem to find a job, and trust me I tried, my bank account only contains some miserable 25 cents, i have no means of transportation, and at this point it seems like I'm never gonna leave home.
You have to realize I like to live in a bubble, I'm a make-your-own-reality kind of guy, my mom says so, my dad says so, shit even my astrology book says so, I don't know how to deal with reality, my bubble is about to burst and once it does I'm afraid I'll become a mess.
If only I had money, people say that money doesn't matter, but it does, money is what makes the world go around, I swear to god If I was financially stable I would be a lot happier, A LOT!
How do you avoid feeling low when everyone around you is higher than you? Some people don't know how lucky they are, seriously.
You have to realize I like to live in a bubble, I'm a make-your-own-reality kind of guy, my mom says so, my dad says so, shit even my astrology book says so, I don't know how to deal with reality, my bubble is about to burst and once it does I'm afraid I'll become a mess.
If only I had money, people say that money doesn't matter, but it does, money is what makes the world go around, I swear to god If I was financially stable I would be a lot happier, A LOT!
How do you avoid feeling low when everyone around you is higher than you? Some people don't know how lucky they are, seriously.
5 comments:
I hear ya. My line of work (nanny) has me working for millionaires. We live off of what they pay me, which is pocket change to them. It's annoying working 50 hours a week for a woman who is a "stay at home mom" that goes to the spa every day for massages and facials instead of raising her kids while I'm at their house busting my butt just to make enough money scrape by and pay the bills. They don't realize how lucky they are. It's annoying when they complain about money. Really? They make millions of dollars a year and they are complaining about money? Try living off of a nanny salary. They don't even know struggling. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful to have a job, but it just irritates me some days.
I think that is awesome that your family wants to pay for your education. It shows their priorities. Keep trying to find a job. Something will come along. Especially with the holidays coming a lot of places hire for seasonal help.
Sometimes it's a good thing to be thrown into the harsh world of reality, but I know you don't wanna hear "You have to experience the bad times in order to appreciate the good times." That has seemed to be the answer thrown at me in any challenging situation.
But I have to agree with you that you are happier with money. And it's not really from the money itself that makes you happy, it's the relief from the worry and stress of not having money causes.
I hate to be one to agree with parents but a college education is important, it's the smartest debt you can get into because it opens up your future for a lot more opportunities. So hang in there Franco! Know that we out here in your somewhat reality blogging world love ya!
Love the Money!
Shift your thought process:
It is your "job" to be a student.
Just keep your focus there.
"Bloom where you are planted".
Your money will come to your in due time but, in the meantime, put in your dues. The money will come.
Get back to your 'dry-wit-comedic-video-blogging'. That is where your natural talent lays waiting.
We are all waiting.
Be consistent, do good, the best is on it's way.
I think we’ve all been down that struggling road at some point in our lives, it’s daunting, but nothing you can’t overcome. I know it sometimes feels as if the things you want the most seem to take longer than anticipated, longer than everything else does… but eventually, it will unfold just as it’s meant to. In the meantime, the fact that your parents are still offering to pay for college even amidst the current financial adversity is truly commendable.
Don’t give up, just keep doing what your doing! ;) xx
I think that at believing in your future and your ability to be strong will get you through this. Never give up hope, things may seem hard and noone seems to understand but sometimes I feel like the bad times are only there to make us really enjoy and appreciate the good ones.
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