I might have Adjustment disorder

·Adjustment disorder: |noun| Abnormal and excessive reaction to a life
stress, such as school, getting divorced, or experiencing grief

Sometimes I feel like my days are like this, and I'm sick of it
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I believe I am going through most people my age go trough, I can't see a light to this tunnel, my future looks foggy, and I don't have a sense of direction, my bubble has finally been broken, and chaos has penetrated. Fuck you reality, fuck you and all your evil works. All these little things are happening to me, and sure they are no big deal, but these little things are causing bigger things to happen, long term things, thing I can't say on these blog. it's amazing how one small thing triggers a massive follow up :( And with that said, I leave with a sad song, "a Bad dream" by Keane.

Home Inspiration

* I'm totally loving white floors & chalkboards [makes me wanna be a child again]

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via Emma designblog

Sound Design

A film by Emilia Forstreuter (emilia@forstreuter.de)
Sound Design by Sam Spreckley (spreckley2@hotmail.com)

Random shit video blog

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Ok you might have noticed that I haven't been involved in the blogging community as much, I have stopped commenting on other's people blog, I still read some, but lately I've blogging for myself.

Love you all still

Took the night by Chelley

Why I don't go to church.

I wanna make sure you guys know, I am not anti-church nor pro-church, but I am pro-self identity. Churches do a lot of good' and if you believe in the Christian god and go to church and you mean it in your heart MORE POWER TO YA, I wish more people could be like you.
But some people give Christianity a bad name. Just saying.

Breaking Points

"BREAKING WALLS"

The walls that I have been building up for years are suddenly breaking,

and reality is slowly taking over my world,
the spell no longer works,

I have failed as a magician.
Escapism has been my get away since I was a kid,
I thought I could be able to maintain that worry-less feeling,
I was wrong,
Dreams can shield you from reality but they cannot change it,
the bubble will eventually burst,
and once it does there's not going back.
If I could only find the spell to change reality itself...
but then if I did the wall between fantasy and reality would break creating chaos among humanity and dreamers.
Sometimes (most of the times) I wish I was a changeling,
only posing as a human until my real fairy family takes me back to their world,
a magical world away from this stressful mundanity.
The walls that I have been building for years are suddenly breaking,
my castle has been penetrated,
and the invasion seems inevitable,
It's only a matter of time until I'm found,
and when that occurs,
I won't know what to do.
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This poem is a reflection of my current state of mind, my family is struggling financially, yet they still insist in paying for college, I tell them that it's OK, I can just skip a few years, but they are hard-headed, I can't seem to find a job, and trust me I tried, my bank account only contains some miserable 25 cents, i have no means of transportation, and at this point it seems like I'm never gonna leave home.
You have to realize I like to live in a bubble, I'm a make-your-own-reality kind of guy, my mom says so, my dad says so, shit even my astrology book says so, I don't know how to deal with reality, my bubble is about to burst and once it does I'm afraid I'll become a mess.
If only I had money, people say that money doesn't matter, but it does, money is what makes the world go around, I swear to god If I was financially stable I would be a lot happier, A LOT!
How do you avoid feeling low when everyone around you is higher than you? Some people don't know how lucky they are, seriously.

Vlog: I quit smoking

For the past two years I've been a social smoker, smoking maybe 1 cigarette every 2 weeks or so, mainly at parties where everyone else smokes, but recently I've realized they don't anything for me except they make me feel cool. So I stopped, I realized that If I keep that up I can easily become a religious smoker by age 23.

Racism Vlog + Art

This a video blog about my experiences with Racism & Being Latino

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Also This is my first real commission piece, you like? It's Spanish Market



Also, someone hired to design a blog, and my boss's wife hired me to help design their kitchen, I'm so nervous!

Alchemy Union

Hey guys, lately I've been neglecting my online life due to real life issues

(and by that i mean getting drunk, work and overall laziness)

You might remember I did a post about 11:11 Enterprises and an interview with the owner Jamila [here], well I would like to tell you guys about her new brand label collaboration, Alchemy Union, which seems to be a new take on Jamila's original technique that will help you bring magic into your life through the usage of universal imagery.

Each image is designed to bring different things into your life, from protection, prosperity, love, wealth, etc, it's so inspirational!


I ♥ you all... Not! I don't even know you guys!