"BREAKING WALLS"
The walls that I have been building up for years are suddenly breaking,
and reality is slowly taking over my world,
the spell no longer works,
I have failed as a magician.
Escapism has been my get away since I was a kid,
I thought I could be able to maintain that worry-less feeling,
I was wrong,
Dreams can shield you from reality but they cannot change it,
the bubble will eventually burst,
and once it does there's not going back.
If I could only find the spell to change reality itself...
but then if I did the wall between fantasy and reality would break creating chaos among humanity and dreamers.
Sometimes (most of the times) I wish I was a changeling,
only posing as a human until my real fairy family takes me back to their world,
a magical world away from this stressful mundanity.
The walls that I have been building for years are suddenly breaking,
my castle has been penetrated,
and the invasion seems inevitable,
It's only a matter of time until I'm found,
and when that occurs,
I won't know what to do.
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This poem is a reflection of my current state of mind, my family is struggling financially, yet they still insist in paying for college, I tell them that it's OK, I can just skip a few years, but they are hard-headed, I can't seem to find a job, and trust me I tried, my bank account only contains some miserable 25 cents, i have no means of transportation, and at this point it seems like I'm never gonna leave home.
You have to realize I like to live in a bubble, I'm a make-your-own-reality kind of guy, my mom says so, my dad says so, shit even my astrology book says so, I don't know how to deal with reality, my bubble is about to burst and once it does I'm afraid I'll become a mess.
If only I had money, people say that money doesn't matter, but it does, money is what makes the world go around, I swear to god If I was financially stable I would be a lot happier, A LOT!
How do you avoid feeling low when everyone around you is higher than you? Some people don't know how lucky they are, seriously.